Author Patrice Gopo Guest Post: For My Husband Driving Down a Mountain

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“Gopo has a special talent for guiding the reader through some of the difficult realities of race, immigration, and identity in America with wisdom and grace.”

 - Rachel Held Evans

Patrice Gopo is the daughter of Jamaican immigrants and grew up in Anchorage, Alaska. She is the author of the collection of essays All the Colors We Will See.

From her white Sunday school classes as a child, to her early days of marriage in South Africa, to a new home in the American South with a husband from another land, Patrice’s life is a testament to the challenges and beauty of the world we each live in, a world in which cultures overlap every day.

The Following is a Guest Post from Patrice:

After Philando Castile’s death in Saint Paul and Alton Sterling’s in Baton Rouge, after too many men gone with skin the shade of yours—after all this, I waved goodbye. A week we’d spent here in the cool of these mountains, and the plans already in place for just me to remain. So I stood amid the perfume of sweet air and sharp evergreens, stood with my hand raised while you journeyed away. “Next week,” I called after you. “I’ll see you when you return next week.” One hundred thirty miles between this mountain and our home.

Earlier that morning, after we wandered the short stretch of a small town’s main road, after we popped into a furniture store that smelled of stained pine, after—yes, after—I spotted a row of black Sambo dolls perched on a dusty shelf—an image I wanted this world to burn long ago—after all this, I pulled open the door to an art gallery and heard a bell chime. The shop owner, with her silver hair and firm wrinkles etched into her pale face, ushered us through the entryway. Our senses took in the white walls, the cream shelves filled with orange and red glass, the scent of canvas and pottery, ink and paint.

“You must be newlyweds,” she said. You and I, we glanced at each other. You touched my arm, and your lips parted into that familiar grin.

“Almost eight years,” I replied.

“So young, so young,” and I think she wanted to reach her weathered hands for ours, but instead she gave us a tour of the art in that brightly lit place. When she found out that I am a writer, she tilted her head to the side. “So much to write about now.” Her words dissipated into a sigh, but I still heard all that she didn’t say.

The headlines say our country is in crisis, and I think about all that smolders and the temperatures that rise with the weariness of these recent days. She muttered, “Good people know good people, and that’s all that matters.” She blew us a kiss as we walked away, a breath of air that might ignite a spark or extinguish a flame.

After Philando Castile’s death in Saint Paul and Alton Sterling’s in Baton Rouge, after your car pulled away, I called out “Goodbye” to you. I can’t remember if I took my palm to my lips and gifted you a kiss across the empty space, but I tell myself that you caught all that I wanted to say. Please, my love, keep your hands on the wheel, your registration close. Keep your speed under the limit and go straight home.

I watched your car’s dusty bumper shrinking out of sight, the start of your spiral down that mountain, your return to the heat of our burning unknown. All I could do was reach out my open hand and wave.

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